So here is the corollary of Losses, as u can’t go down to the bottom without going up too, at some point. Here r things to be grateful for, even in the midst of chaos.

  1. In the USA, WE GAIN a new President as of January 20, 2021, and a new VP, plus a whole new Administration, and most importantly, a return to law, order, respect and good judgment not only 4 the people of this nation, but 4 the world! All hail President Joe R. Biden and Vice President Kamala Harris. We will regain normalcy also, and a President who wants to vanquish the virus asap, so we have less to concern ourselves with.
  2. Perhaps most importantly, we have both domestic and foreign pharmaceutical companies who have recently claimed up to 95% efficacy on COVID vaccine trials in late Stage 3, that Dr Anthony Fauci has also approved as being not rushed, and effective, so far. He is trying to quell public insecurity about the politicized process here in the USA as to safety and efficacy of said vaccines.
  3. As a world community, we have taken to not only protecting ourselves individually, but also 4 the common good of everyone, to wear a mask, when u cannot safely distance yourself from others, especially while indoors or in close quarters, like private vehicles, public transit, airplanes, etc. We have as a whole looked out for our brothers and sisters, to not spread a deadly illness, especially to those whom it would likely be deadly. This is laudable.
  4. We have deprived ourselves and others of our physical company also as a function of protecting those who r particularly vulnerable, because the more people u r exposed to, the higher your risk, especially w regard to close contact, under 6 feet, perhaps eating, drinking, obviously without a mask then. This will also be true for upcoming group holidays, which r cherished traditions, as we realize that it may be unsafe to do the usual thing this year. We have sacrificed in the name of saving people. This is also laudable.
  5. We talk on the phone, video chat and ZOOM each other in lieu of being in actual physical proximity, to show others we haven’t forgotten them, and also to show we care. Sometimes phone sex is just phone sex, because u can’t be in person either. Too hi risk? Not on the video, not really.
  6. When u can’t do the things u normally enjoy, because they r shut down, or have been canceled/postponed, then u may have extra income, perhaps, to do good deeds 4 others. This year, I have a list of projects that I funded 4 my dear friends as family, which would not normally be the case, if it had been a normal year, which it was most certainly NOT. Doing good 4 others is good 4 u also, in that it bears benefits 4 health and life purpose, and is very satisfying. Also, it helps on the karmic scale as well.
  7. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. And phone sex isn’t like in person sex, right?
  8. Hair salons, nail salons, spas, bowling alleys, some movies elsewhere, other than NYC, have re-opened. All good. We have had also some indoor dining again, but it depends on local restrictions as to where. And outdoor dining under tarps and tents, trees, and umbrellas, can be wonderful, depending on how the weather is outside. Seems kind of European, the practice of that.
  9. They brought professional sports back. Also, kids’ teams, college sports. Although w restrictions as to protecting players and all others.
  10. Some online streaming platforms continue to proliferate, offering more viewing choices, for ever more $. The division of the airways is debatable as to whether it was an overall good or just sucking money from everyone, because how much extra r u willing to pay each service? But overall, more is better. I grew up where it was a mere 7 channels on the air, it was all free, and everyone watched, in black & white, and no remote control either! Boy, am I old!
  11. We have smart phones that dominate our lives. Is this good? Well, we can see both benefits and downfalls, but having every stitch of knowledge at your command by voice activation is something Einstein and Ben Franklin would have been mesmerized by. Just don’t believe everything u search, whether it’s by Google or not. Retain skepticism. And be certain to get a good solid education too, to utilize these tools better.
  12. We cook more at home, some actually becoming good at it, if there is an aptitude and interest. This is most definitely good 4 u and your family overall. U can control ingredients, additives, buy organic, add less fat, use more specialized herbs, etc. Home cooked food is usually superior food.
  13. We can still go outside, and enjoy the weather, when that is feasible, doing outdoor activities, that r less dangerous than the indoor varieties. Home exercise equipment has seen a boom, among other household items and improvements also. This has been good for some sectors of the economy.
  14. The initial shock of the pandemic was met by Presidential and Congressional action as a CARES Act, w unemployment enhanced benefits, eviction protections, free or subsidized COVID testing, small business forgivable loans, if certain conditions were met, and other relief for vital business infrastructure, like the airlines. This was both needed and good. But now, there is further need for fiscal stimulus, or else society will break down. No one knew how long this was going to take when the walls were falling in March 2020.
  15. We prove our mettle as a society of people when we adapt effectively to changing circumstances. We do what we can 4 those who r less fortunate, by volunteering, donating, baby sitting, caregiving, helping in any way we can. I saw today that homeless men on the Upper West Side of Manhattan had been employed as street sweepers and cleaners, which is giving back too, given that they r housed at The Lucerne, a hotel there. They want to earn their keep, and stay put.
  16. Remember always that the homeless r not miscreants, but rather some of them r merely people who were isolated, w no family perhaps, and insufficient monies to pay the rent. That’s about 3 million New Yorkers these days, as to not having jobs anymore, nor any unemployment benefits to fall back on. And exhausted savings. It can happen to literally anyone, just 2 paychecks away from homelessness. That is the false American dream, that u received a bill of goods, which was a big fat lie.
  17. Give thanks 4 what u have. Count your blessings, my dear comrades. Socialism is not our system, but helping others in need most certainly is.
  18. Lastly, if it is safe to do so, I strongly recommend in person sex, but that will apply most likely to people who r either married or in long term living in arrangements, with whom u can reduce risks, because u care 4 each other. That’s the ideal sex, after all, when u love each other, body & soul. It’s also good to reduce your stress level!



  1. My parents, in 2010 and 2014. Miss both of them, but was closer to my mom, in 2014.
  2. Effectively, my only blood half sister, because of her unwillingness to forgive or have a relationship w me anymore. That’s on her tho.
  3. Most of my cousins, as they do not have an interest in keeping in touch at all, even tho I try, periodically.
  4. Single line entries of 2020 in person meetings w friends, due to the damned pandemic and self-preservation efforts.
  5. Most travel, almost all by air, or by common carriers, like Amtrak, public transit in NYC. Almost all unsafe, even tho it has improved some.
  6. Live music concerts, vacations, theater, movies, sharing time w friends, in public places, mostly.
  7. Indoor dining at restaurants, even tho it came back, it’ll be taken again.
  8. Failures of countless businesses, including iconic restaurants, chain stores, department stores, unique mom and pop shops that r the bedrock of NYC.
  9. President Donald J. Trump and VP Michael R. Pence! Soon.
  10. The entire sycophantic Administration of DJ Trump, soon.
  11. Aunt Marilyn, on May 31st, my last of that generation. She was 93.
  12. Members of my Lodge, also sister to a close friend, Anna Lyrist, aged 67. All COVID. NYC was the USA epicenter in March and April, May 2020.
  13. Massive crime increases locally, also as a function of catch & release non-violent criminals, due to COVID. Massive increases in violent crimes also.
  14. Much higher food insecurity which is widespread.
  15. Coming drops of eviction protections, so people will be evicted into the dead of winter, w no capacity to house the homeless either.
  16. Budget shortfalls due to massive loss of revenues from taxes, as a function of unemployment. No reimbursement from Washington, as they hate NY, but also nowhere else either. No state is getting COVID expenses reimbursement. This means firings of doctors, nurses, firemen, corrections officers, FBI, policemen, sanitation, teachers, education assistants, DMV, FDA, EPA, Disaster Management, countless public servants that the public relies on. States have to balance their budgets, whereas the feds don’t have to.
  17. Soup kitchens and food pantries w lines around the block, and in other places, miles of cars lined up, as people have no way to put food on the table. They lined up right in front of my house, going around a very long block from a pantry.
  18. Schools shuttered w practically no advanced warning, in March 2020, and again opened late in Sept, and closed again in November as of the 19th. The working theory is that the 3% positivity rate in NYC is the trigger point for need to close, as children may be vectors of the infection, not showing any symptoms either.
  19. Sports mostly shut down also, major leagues as well as kids’ teams, college athletics, all have seen disruption, and no live audiences on site either.
  20. TV seasons came back to new programming in November 2020. Game shows were on repeats for many months, as u couldn’t have live audiences as in the past, and if u did, u had to segregate everyone. They had to retrofit studios to compensate.
  21. Air fares, theater tickets, concert tickets were all put on hold, w alternative dates announced and re-announced, as to far future dates, and refunds were not always available either.
  22. USA citizens were pretty much persona non grata all over the world as we have no control over COVID, w a high country-wide contagion rate. So we were kept in place involuntarily, unless we could quarantine in other countries for 14 days, meaning not going out at all from an indoor space. We were also prohibited from Canada and Mexico even, our border countries. This effectively meant vacations abroad became impossible.
  23. Nurses and doctors all over the USA r exhausted, and some thousands of them have already died too, from COVID, as caregivers. There have been periodic shortages of proper personal protective equipment, over and over again, as well as lack of ventilators, space to put the ones who were critically ill, only moderately ill, and also the dead were placed in refrigerated trucks due to overflows of bodies, nationwide.
  24. Even tho this is taking place all around us, still people have not written wills, or put into place any plans for becoming ill, like having a power of attorney in place, to pay bills, or have a health care proxy to delineate what a person wants in terms of care. It is truly a state of denial w dire consequences if one does manage to survive.
  25. People r dying all alone, as COVID protocols prohibit visitors due to the airborne virus. Even nurses r the only ones allowed in segregated tents where the very ill r kept. U only have a Face Time or an iPad to say goodbye to, if your loved one can still speak.
  26. Every single day over 1000 Americans die from COVID. We have just passed 250,000 dead here so far. Disproportionately, Black people and Latinos have died in far greater numbers, due to societal racial disparities, and poverty.
  27. The entire Vietnam Veterans Memorial has over 58,000 dead memorialized in Washington DC. We r nearing 5x that number soon as to dead. We can calculate when that number will be crossed by some calculus of virus spread and increased death counts as it gets colder.
  28. The failure of the outgoing Administration to coordinate w the incoming one likely means that vaccine disbursements, when available, will be further delayed, this jeopardizing some other lives, including most precious current health care provider lives. THERE IS STILL NO TRANSITION, AND THIS IS DAY 13 SINCE THE ELECTION WINNER WAS CALLED!!
  29. The outgoing POTUS is having a public tantrum rather than caring for his country and his people. He is entitled to his recounts, and verifications, if he likes, but NOT at the expense of the people and their health. The outside betting is that he will find some way to overthrow the Electoral College which will vote on now December 14th, thus invalidating the overwhelming victory of the President-elect. That isn’t going to happen. This is conduct unbecoming. And I am being kind.

Heartland America, Thanks!

Old MacDonald had a farm, E-I-E-I-O! And on that farm he had some schmucks, who tumbled as weeds, screaming foul! Them thar turkeys be fowl! And as Thanksgiving was approaching better fatten ’em up, to be brined and juicy, E-I-E-I-O! So that the kinfolk and friends could eat heartily and give thanks for any and all blessings, about 10 feet apart, wearing masks but for the food and drink consumption…and all manner of grievances would be aired, and embarrassments aplenty heaped on plates w cow dung as a side dish! Because not everyone got what they wanted this holiday season! Especially not the farmers! They all be red states, the heartland, spouting temblors for the heartland where the crops grow and the herds graze. And they by far and large voted red, as they always do. So they r wailing now! Cry foul! And I use the vernacular purposefully, as the red states use questionable English, so I am doing so also, to more mightily imitate them. (“They all be red states…”) I am a stickler for proper English, unless doing so would be inauthentic to actual usage of the farmers and their families. When u gotta be workin’ da land, the education takes a back seat, don’t it, grans? Even my own ancestors gave up school at 6th, 8th and 9th grades, thinking that was enough. But we of the modern age knew it wasn’t. And now, unless u have at least a bachelor’s degree, it’s mighty hard to make a decent living in these United States, divided tho they r. I espouse an affectation of a genius named Prince, a pop/rock star, who also liked to abbreviate his words to a single letter, 4 “brevity is the soul of wit.”- W. Shakespeare, Hamlet. I make no apologies for my own usage, as it is my right to shorten and quote, and run on, if the point is made, thus. This is my blog, after all. I have full freedom to use my Amendment Number 1 right: Free Speech. As long as it isn’t egregious, like yelling fire in a crowded theater.

And so it has been quite a few days since 11/7 now, and we dawdle away the days, w a happy hue of rosy cheeks, or of green complexion, as to jealousy and disbelief and doubt…as to what happened?! A man was arrested for online plans to kill Senators, and any and all Democrats, as he can’t accept the election. The FBI got his ass. He graduates to an orange suit now. Manacles, no more freedom. And the Brits have already gleefully taken down the Madame Tussaud’s wax figure of President Trump, to wear a golfing sportswear of plaid and purple, green…as if he were now a golfing caricature. Private Citizen Trump waiting for the little green men to come take him away….as they play them thar song, “They’re Coming to Take me Away, a-ha!” And it’s to a funny farm, that song…ok, Enough. Defense of Temporary Insanity?? Nah. The votes went down as u count them, because u told your adherents to go vote in person, and not by mail! What did u expect, that they’d do their own thing?! They didn’t, they followed your orders. And so it’s not unusual that as u get down to the legally cast mail in votes, they skew widely to Biden. Bully Pulpit, u ever hear that? Use it, man!

Look, kiss my ass! U can’t miss it: it’s as big as the whole state of Texas! But be kind to the ones who lost. Kindness doesn’t cost anyone anything, and is in short supply now. The Divided States of America. I am praying for all of u, and our country too. No insurrection, no concession, no saving the brand name of Trump even, even for those who come after, his children. He never cared for them, they were only tools to be used for his own purpose, like he was for Fred Trump too. And so it goes on, the dysfunctional juggernaut that is Donald J. Trump. I feel comparatively lucky, after whittling down his psychoses and not calling him Dad. Remember also karma is a bitch!

May God bless us all, as we surely need it! And have forgiveness on the Thanksgiving table too, for those who need that as well as the triple chocolate mousse cake…that maketh an ass the size of Texas! Bwahahaha! Some guys like it big, after all….


The people of the USA have now spoken, and as of 11:25am EST, on 7 November, 2020, we knew: that we had elected Joe Biden and Kamala Harris, another first here in America: our first ever woman , and also a Black woman of Asian Indian ancestry, of her very parents, both of whom r now gone from this Earthly realm. She is actually my age too, 56 years old, only 5 months younger than I, and her boss, now President-elect Biden is going to be 78 years old on November 20th, the oldest elected President ever, but well seasoned and ready to govern, reasonably fit and healthy too.

I literally cried for joy a long time, out of pent up desire and stress release, when it came on, as a special breaking news TV interruption. I felt sad however for my compatriots, as so many people had supported President Trump, whatever their reasons, and passionately held grievances. I resolve to be kind and understanding as regards their distress, as it could have been us who were weeping, not from joy. Not much later, after posting on Facebook, Twitter, I got a text request to keep politics out of discussion today at late lunch in Manhattan. And so I complied, mostly, even tho one of the guests to said delicious Italian lunch brought it up at the table. We tried to be kind however to the ones who supported Trump. Even as we heard sporadic episodes of applause, cars honking, people dancing in the street, all manner of celebration public.

We were over 74 million votes for Biden, over 70 million for Trump, and still they r counting, tho the result is a done thing, over an anachronistic Electoral College structure on top of the so called “popular vote,” which is the actual number of votes that people directly cast. The Electoral College is a weird structure on top of the popular vote, that assigns special Electors according to how the actual votes went, and it’s usually an all or none proposition as to a state’s Electors, who r sworn to uphold the will of the people as to the direct vote. Each state has so many Electors based upon its population, and the minimum is 3 for a state, up to 55 for the state of CA. My state is a big prize w 29 Electoral votes. But the critical one was one of several battleground states and this year it was PA, w its 20 Electoral votes. At the point of the counting, the 20 would put Biden over the top as u need 270 Electoral votes to win the election. Once reached, it is incontrovertible, as there is no lawsuit or recount that will overturn the result. But let them have their due process, to make it clear that the people have spoken, and this was their collective will. The Trump voters r calling foul, alleging corruption, as they fear the Biden Presidency and its opposite policies, even tho Biden is being very Presidential, calm, conciliatory in victory, to call for healing and national unity. No more harsh rhetoric, or hatred, division.

Let us bind up our wounds and rebuild America and the world again, in peace and prosperity! With concern for our fellow man and woman, in terms of climate change and also against COVID, as we will overcome. It is fine to watch it all play out, and know that the Lord’s will was done, as it turned out this way. It is Morning in America again, to echo another great President, back in 1980, Ronald Reagan. I wish that those who r disappointed will give a long line of forbearance to the new President, once he takes office on January 20, 2021.

And about time to see a woman up there beside him, a heartbeat from the Presidency too! Historic USA election in so many ways, it was not unlike a held breath being exhaled, w tremendous relief! And I love it too, that she is Black, tho she is of an interesting complexion. Beautiful! Viva Biden/ Harris, as the USA is moving from its white roots to a more mixed and hopefully fairer America 4 all! …To establish a more perfect union, provide for the common defense, and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America! And so it was democracy in action, on these days leading up to November 3, 2020. And the people spoke, and it was so, that their collective will was heard around the world.

Flash Point Earth Election

And we r T minus 13 days now from the Election Day to end all Election Days, in the USA, which is November 3rd, 2020. Voting is already underway in many states, and NY State, which I live in, begins its early voting in person process in T minus 3 days now. I have literally made it a major life goal to make it to vote in this election! I have exhorted every person I know who has the right to vote to do so, preferably in person also. Regardless of their political affiliation. We r the few of the entire world who can make a difference w regard to 2 issues that concern the ENTIRE PLANET: CLIMATE CHANGE AND COVID-19!!! And we begin by voicing our dissatisfaction and selfishness, by repenting of same, in effect, to firing Donald Trump, the anti-science bloviator (a person who employs a political style of empty, pompous political speech, in which the speaker speaks as long as the occasion warrants, and says nothing). He is undiagnosed by any psychiatrist or even a licensed psychotherapist, but enough has been observed by his actions and speeches, his tweets and TV performances to ascertain that he has multiple psych disorders that make him totally unfit for the Presidency. He is like a launched cannonball, coming at you from a circus cylinder, w his brushed yellow hair and orange complexion, he looks like a primate we r descended from, and acts not much differently. Hey, respect 4 the chimps, gorillas and orangutans!!

I make a point of being tolerant and kind, and loving to my fellow man, even those whom I disagree with politically. I believe in civilized discourse. But that is possible only when there is a coherent civilization that we all have a strong belief in and desire for. We r at such a point now that it seems that that is beyond our reach, actually. The USA is in free fall. We can see it from its inward implosion, explosion of special interests, violence increasing, lack of coherence in protecting the people, all of them! Not just the red states, or the Republicans, as if blue states and Democrats r worthy to be burned in tar pits. We so hate each other that the ability to form a just and kind, even fair society, seems beyond the will of the people now. We r like the Gladiators of ancient Rome, the victims of pirates and thieves, wanton murderers, all in the name of right to bear arms, the right to keep other minority groups down, to hate those who work hard and make a good living as a result, all division and conquering! If u will not be my slave, then u deserve death…it is like that now, the all consuming hatred.

I want no part of it. At some point in this story, I will also fall, as I am particularly hi risk for COVID, but weep not 4 me, Argentina! I will be weeping for all of u, who remain, to see the destruction of a civilization I once loved, and had hope for. Along w no concern for your children, grandchildren and fellow man, who inherit the Earth, as it burns up, or dies into the tsunami seas, inundated until no land, only water, saline, that we cannot drink…I will count myself lucky to have escaped this fate by death. I can rest in peace in my mausoleum on a beautiful piece of the Earth, in the Bronx, which I visited yesterday, as my mother is buried there. I will be too, when my time comes.

Unless Joe Biden and Kamala Harris win, there is no hope for a future, not 4 us, not 4 fellow Earth dwellers. It all rests in the hands of the few who have the vote, in these United States of America. And that’s not fair to all other nations either, damn it! We disproportionately affect the entire planet, and our apathy for even exercising the right to vote is just appalling! The young have right to hate us too, 4 doing nothing, in terms of our own disgusting selfishness, in praise of that almighty God forsaken dollar. What price to mortgage our children’s future?? 120 degrees and 100% humidity, w no power to run air conditioning? Melted shoes, parched throats, drought stricken lands, no produce, no meat, fish died out too…how do u fill the bellies of billions of people, as the population keeps growing….

One last thing: read THE UNINHABITABLE EARTH, by David Wallace-Wells. He gives u facts on the disaster to come, which is in progress already. Even tho he is hopeful for only a planet wide 3 degree Celsius warming. Gee, isn’t that sporting of him? He has a child too. See what is coming, and then talk to me. Oh yeah, can’t do that either, as I will be dead by then, w only these printed blog entries to pick through, as my voice is silenced. But until then, I will blow long and hard, and keep speaking my poison, in the hope that we can turn it around!! Damn it all!

In Memoriam of Sister Breonna Taylor (Say Her Name!)

I meander without peace

March without justice

Gag without consumption

Unfettered as a MULTITUDE

Seeking that which is guaranteed to me & my brethren:


And redress of grievances

Regardless of my native tint!

The vaunted Constitution of the land codified my birthright

And all my legislators, President AND judges vow to uphold same,

Without racist discrimination, nor servitude, nor abuse, neglect, starvation,

Privation of body & soul, U ALL SWEAR TO UPHOLD IT, SO HELP U, GOD!!!

Because racism & hatred against one group is the same as Naziism & the practitioners of government sanctioned killing make the entire society evil & corrupt.

We must strive for a more perfect union

Blind to inequity & injustice

A shining city on a hill (reference to Ronald Reagan, 1980’s)

Worthy of entry to the Pearly Gates.

Or else plunge into the collective Abyss!!

Repent, that ye may be free, to see the light, anew!

Or else, in your next life, be born Black in racist America

Meeting the Poison u spewed out at us, defiling your very soul!

The Notorious Ruth Bader Ginsburg (RBG) In Memorium

On this past Friday night, 18 September 2020, my world came to an abrupt ending, first w a text from a girlfriend who had asked if RBG had died. She had asked me because it was I who took her to see the movie “On the Basis of Sex,” in Oranjestad, Aruba, in January 2019, and who was a staunch Conservative herself. I had prepared her ahead that RBG was a historic figure for women, and to give her a chance, even tho the political persuasions were opposites for RBG and my friend. I wanted her to appreciate what RBG had done, even tho her politics were adverse to my friend’s. And so began an education for my dear friend, who was as happy as a clam that I had insisted that this movie was going to be very eye opening, insofar as it had followed Ruth’s life as a young woman, meeting Marty, a wonderful human himself, who became Ruth’s husband, and was also a tax attorney. Marty had no insecurity as to his own worth, and needing his wife to be somehow inferior; quite the contrary. He was there, all through it, from encouragement in law school, to prep for SCOTUS cases that Ruth got to argue, to extolling her achievements in every way that a man can be supportive to a woman. It was a grand love story, those two. I was so happy for my dear RBG to have found such an august man to be her mate! They were married for 56 years, which ended w Marty’s passing in 2010. They produced two children and four grandchildren, one great grandchild as of this passing of Ruth now, just days ago.

I saw my life came to an end that night because I have been in mourning, long and hard tears, as if my own mother had been pierced in her breast by a crossbow arrow. It felt just like that, her dying now, of all times, during the Jewish New Year, Rosh Hashanah, and particularly because we are nearing the Presidential election on November 3, 2020. Ruth had communicated a dying wish to one of her grandchildren, to not fill her Supreme Court seat, until a new President of the United States had been duly elected. Sadly, Ruth knew that this POTUS would not respect any such wishes, even from a person of such stature as she held in this country. And indeed, it is like a playbook that we could see coming, from many miles away: use the machinery of government, and his self styled sycophants in the Senate, particularly one Majority Leader Mitch McConnell, Republican of Kentucky, who will spearhead a nominee asap, just because putting Conservatives on the SCOTUS is the most lasting way a POTUS has in his arsenal to change life for millions in this country. With 9 SCOTUS Justices, 6 of which will be now Republican Conservatives, we will see major social milestones reversed, and rights granted before now, rescinded. Indeed, by packing the Court w his own appointees, Trump ensures his own win via judicial argument, a la Bush vs. Gore, on December 12, 2000. In case of a long counting of votes made necessary by major mail in voting ballots, all over the USA, secondary to the worldwide pandemic.

In 2016, some 9 months before Election day, President Barack Obama had put up a name for consideration by the Senate, to confirm a nominee to the SCOTUS, upon the death of Antonin Scalia, one Merrick Garland. That same scoundrel Senator McConnell, refused to take up any vote on that nominee, simply because of the impending election, even some 8 months out, when they got the name…and also because the Executive Branch was Democratic while the Senate was controlled by Republicans. Now the argument is reversed by McConnell, that since the Executive and the Senate r the same party, we can simply ram through any nominee they want. Trash, hypocrisy! A scoundrel POTUS aided and abetted by his Senator henchmen. They acquitted him of Impeachment and Removal from office also, a couple of years ago, it seems like…not even an election issue now.

But Notorious RBG will live on in her legacy, and major honors given to her, as she was a Giant of Jurisprudence, in the dogged fight against injustice to women, which she herself was subject to, in being even in Columbia University Law School, one of only 9 women, who was presented before the President of the School, to be chastised for taking away a seat from a deserving man who could have filled that space! And then after tying for 1st in class honors upon graduation, could find not a single law firm to take her in employment! Sexual discrimination, also because by then, she had become a mother, which was viewed as an impediment. She argued brilliantly, and worked her way out of this spider’s web of sexual inequity that male lawyers and judges were simply blind to. But not Marty. Marty knew it was unfair, and encouraged her trailblazing ethic of getting men to see the inequality and inequity of the system, even using it against men, in taking cases that showed that caregiving and monetary benefits were properly given to men who became caregivers for elderly parents too. Such intelligence and drive she had, all through her years of service, whether in the majority or in dissent, as the Court became more Conservative over time.

As a Brooklyn born Jew, who came from immigrants, same as I did, I felt her loss very acutely. She spoke for all American women as an icon, a trailblazer for equal rights, equal pay and benefits, and was indefatigable in her fight to the end. May she Rest in Power, much loved RBG, who lived to the age of 87 years. 1933-2020. I feel like I owe her a personal debt, in all that she did to fight the good fight! She was also my 2nd mom in this way.

Even now, I see her honored on the TV nightly, and the tears keep coming, as the world lost someone truly great. She will lie in state at the Capitol Rotunda, the 1st woman to do so in the history of this nation. Before this date, Rosa Parks had lain there in honor, a different title of remembrance, in 2005. Even in that too, there is an invisible wall, that why did it take this long to honor a woman so? And there is the bias and the misogyny we must daily fight against, w everything we have. And before the Capitol lying in state, there will be two days now, at the top of the Supreme Court steps first. Finally, next week, she will be buried at Arlington National Cemetery. At least she is reunited w her dear husband in the Afterlife, as well as her dear friend Justice Antonin Scalia. They were both opposites in politics, but a great love and friendship sprang up among the flowers of this lovely existence between them. We r all the poorer 4 their passing out of this life, but never to be forgotten!

Too Much and Never Enough Review

Just finished a humdinger of a political exposé re the current occupant of the White House, aka President of these United States of America, plus his family of origin and the one which grew up w him, then onward, as he is now 74 years old. Wow! I am a never Trumper, by far and large, but I felt a major swirl of emotions from this 211 page book.

I found myself lamenting poor Donald, and his 4 siblings, as they were certainly losers in the life lottery of picking parents, as if our souls actually do so, before we r born (a strange theory, positing that 4 the growth of our eternal souls, we need to experience the inverse of what we have doled out, in other lifetimes). But that’s another essay, for another day. To the business at hand, which is to dissect how this man who has outsized influence now, for all of us in the USA, and indeed, the world entirely, by virtue of his environmental policies, which affect all this planet’s inhabitants. The costs of his policies far exceed the time he spends in office, as certain long term projects r not easily dismantled, and even a new President will not be glad to put workers out of work, but he may, if he feels the cost is too high. Keystone pipelines, fracking networks, coal mines, all about old time dirty carbon heavy waste which heats the planet, exponentially, and is doing so, at an accelerated rate. I care about people, even tho I am childless, but yet, I feel for the younger millions, who r inheriting something very sinister, after we r gone: a severely hot world, past the point of no return. What does this President care, who lacks empathy? He is 74 now, and he has genetics 4 Alzheimer’s disease too, by his father, who was certainly quite the piece of work. His mother was sick all his life too, past the age of Donald being 2 1/2 years old. She was basically absent in her health struggles, and did nothing, literally nothing, to have any influence whatsoever on her 3 sons, of the 5 children she bore. As she abdicated her parental role, none of her sons had any use 4 her, as u might imagine this actual emotional abandonment.

I found myself weepy over little Donald, who at this toddler’s age, had not anyone to soothe him, or help him develop coping strategies, for growing up, no love, only cruelty, and a ruthless narcissism, and a usage mentality from Dad, who as Fred Trump, also known to be a Ku Klux Klansman, tho this isn’t mentioned explicitly in the book. Would u like to watch him batter his eldest son over and over again, physically and mentally, wearing him down, as never good enough, to be anything Fred wanted him to be, an adult with ruthless financial efficiency and cruelty at Trump Mgmt. Freddy failed miserably at the only use his father had 4 him, over there. The boys were a mere nuisance, waiting to be grown up, to assume the aforementioned role the ruthless father had inserted them into. And a mom missing in action, who was ignored and pretty much spat upon, for her failures as well.

I pictured this baby in his diapers, becoming a toddler, and the long years of watching older son Freddy beaten down, physically and mentally abused, so it was a literal crucible during which the younger sons, Donald included, figured out how to not wind up like Freddy. No one can emerge from this not emotionally scarred 4 life. I don’t exactly excuse adult Donald from his cruelty and his ignorance, his cheating, lying pathologically, his attachment to the world’s dictators, who can very easily play him, like a fool, because they see his obvious weaknesses, and exploit same. The problem is he represents us all, as Americans! When we elect a buffoon, we become the world’s ass!

But still, I feel for that little boy he was, when he lost, big time. It wasn’t his fault at that point, but he picked some mighty deficient parents, if indeed we pick our sire and dame.

This President has multiple mental pathologies, and Dr Mary Trump, his accomplished niece, is qualified to diagnose him, and indeed her grandfather as well as that grandmother, who were the seeds of his massive malignant narcissism and becoming a sociopath. And a massive number of Americans r still enthralled w him, this POTUS! He may even win in November, but we r engaged in get out the vote strategies, to one and all, and r publishing daily on social media, making videos even, more and more books, which r exposés, so that people can make a reasoned choice.

This niece was a victim of both of her grandparents too, full disclosure, not due to any fault of her own. Her father was the sad and short lived son, Freddy, the first dead of the 5 siblings, and her surviving mother was also hated by the Trumps. They were cut off pretty much, financially, and sometimes their health insurance was ended w no notice as well, just 4 cruelty’s sake, when they were suing for a piece of the estate of Fred Sr. Your entire worth as a person was merely how big your money was. Nothing else u did mattered to them. U had worth if u had money; if not, u were to be disposed of. This was their true belief and religion, the Trumps. And so they all paid, dearly. Karma is a bitch! I always assert that.

Apologies to my friends who like Trump, and will vote 4 him. I bear u no ill will. But if u will just open your eyes wide…by looking at the other side of pathology. Trump also had exactly 5 children, just as his parents had, 3 sons and 2 daughters. They have my pity as well. I can only hope that their 3 mothers will be better at being parents than the matriarch Mary was. Otherwise they too have no chance at a normal or fruitful life. To have the Donald as dad is punishment enough 4 a lifetime, given his background.

I heartily recommend this book, BTW. If u have the stomach 4 it. It is a page turner, and u will see why this President acts as he does. And also, Dr Mary Trump also has the proof as well, for crimes committed in the course of illegal business dealings, among other things. There is newly uncovered proof of Donald having paid someone else, who that was, to take his SAT’s 4 him, in order to gain acceptance to the Wharton School of Business at the University of Pennsylvania, an Ivy League school. U may not be able to arrest a sitting President, but this is in fact one of his many crimes. And no one will be abetting his excuses once he is out of office. Again, here comes karma, Donald!

Love in the Time of Corona

So u think that all the travel, movies, indoor eating at restaurants, theater, plays, musicals, concerts, ballet, symphony, even outdoor sports, all group events r just GONE?! POOF! Not even sacred rituals like funerals, weddings, baptisms, bar mitzvahs, graduation ceremonies…if they happen at all, they will be socially distanced, like cars honking down a street, or parked in a drive in, because indoor movies r just GONE! What do we do? No touch either, unless u r coupled, living together, low risk, because u know what exposure each partner has to The Plague. And most of all, trust. That is the secret to long life. Do u have someone who u love and trust, who is committed 2 u?

Let me tell u, dating in the time of Corona just sucks. U have to assess every damned candidate w a frigging list of questions, like to see if they have an STD (of which there r innumerable common ones), not only who they bed and how often, but also who they tongue kiss..AND exposure prophylaxis as well…any known exposure to an active patient w The Plague…and also contact w the public, as an essential worker, say a teacher, w little germ factory students, running in and out of rooms, day in, day out, even if it’s only 2 days a week…yup, hi risk. When did u last test 4 COVID?

Time to go invest in sex toy companies, methinks! I’d expect sales to go thru the roof as people think of bodily needs and life risk re Corona. And apps and lies, and bullshit, and just casual sleep overs, just casual kisses at gas stations, one time, tongue kiss, doesn’t count?! Yeah, it does. If u kiss, u might as well fuck. As to Corona passage. Please pardon the language, but I’m mad. Mad as hell! And when mad as hell, well, I yell “FUCK!” That’s the Bronx side of me, mince no words, and spew it out, my vitriol. I love the F word actually, it’s so expressive, even tho vulgar. My friends know me well. Tho I can and do control the usage, it depends on my audience. I like to shock people too.

When I tell tales of many construction men up on the scaffolding out my windows, all surrounding said apartment, they wonder if I am flashing those workers! Because I like to be about my home naked, as it’s a rare pleasure that others don’t have. When u r alone, u can do just about anything in your space. Pretty much. Complete freedom. No snores either, bed when u want. Sleep naked in a cool bedroom. Draw the shades. Sleep fitfully. My isolation is a good thing in terms of Corona. Much less likely to get hit up. Go out only when necessary. Or do so because frigging stir crazy! And assess precautions taken in the places u deem safe enough to frequent. I have been traveling, only exclusively by car, this summer.

Places driven to: Atlantic City, NJ, once down, one more to go; Uncasville and New Canaan, CT; Fishkill and Wappingers Falls, NY; and soon to come, a first time to stay: Montauk, NY, on Long Island. More mileage than usual, because flying seems too sinister still, even tho the airlines r trying like hell to clean their cabins, and use good filters, BUT u will sit next to a stranger, no matter where u sit on a plane, and that is dangerous. And people act out w the prohibition against removing your mask…so if a flight attendant demands u wear it, real trouble is brewing, because Americans couldn’t give a flying fuck what u say, including wear your frigging mask! All flight long??!! But I can’t breathe wearing it! I actually bought a pulse oximeter to measure my oxygen saturation level wearing a variety of masks I have purchased. And one of them actually reduced my oxygenation to a critical level! And this mask was issued by Plainview Hospital, on Long Island…and I would have passed out had I kept it on, actually. My O2 sat was at a mere 72%, when u need to be at 95-100%. Unreal. Garbage then, once I saw.

But back to sex in the time of Corona. Articles in the media mention that 20 and 30 somethings r still getting it on, casually, even tho they recognize it’s even more fraught now. U need like a 20 question interview in order to safely hook up. And then, what? Once only? All that effort in order to screw once, and let it be, no more…seems like wasted effort. I think Corona is going to tighten up sexual mores into the before times, like the 1950’s, in these United States of America. It was a time of if a guy wanted regular sex, he was pushed into marriage, as the only reasonable, socially sanctioned custom, in order to propagate the species, but also in order to just, damn it, get off! And women were taught to keep their legs tight before the ring is on that finger, at least. So there wasn’t too much hanky panky going on then. And the churches, and the synagogues and the mosques taught that the only ok way to get what u needed, re sex, was via marriage.

I know it sounds draconian, especially to today’s youth, who r so inured to sex now, that they don’t think that a tongue kiss is equal to intercourse, but in the time of Corona, hell yes, it is! Same transmission from both orifices, ladies and gents. And they actually believe that post Bill Clinton’s romp, oral sex doesn’t count as sex either! Hell, if a President says that, under oath, no less, well, it must be that oral sex is just whack. Doesn’t count, nope. Even when the dress is stained w semen on it.

So what is a single girl to do? One w a major league sex drive? Well, those sex toys don’t talk back, don’t need Viagra, and can be made safe by washing….what a life! One of my uncles died and we cleaned out his house, and we found oodles of videotapes of pornography…and frankly, that is reasonable, when u haven’t got a partner. He died unfulfilled however. More’s the pity.

In the 1950’s America however, a major segment of the population was disenfranchised w regard to sexuality, and this has changed, a lot, since then. I speak of the gay contingent of LGBTQ+ people. Back then, a person was led to believe that if u perchance were gay, u had to keep it silent, buttoned up, 4ever. The only acceptable outlet was heterosexual marriage, consistent w all major religions’ belief systems as well. So many of those poor souls were denying themselves, and pushing a square peg into a round hole, which didn’t really fit, in order to conform to the societal standard, and not bring shame on the family. And those wives, and those children, who resulted from said unions, were made into caricatures of themselves also, as they did not know, even unto death do us part, the truth…and it had life repercussions on whether they ever mated, or got remarried, and the sexual activity was also not reciprocally enjoyable, not by a long shot. I speak first hand of this, having had several important members of my own family be both out and closeted gay. I have outed some of them in my writing before this, but I will keep it quiet 4 this one, who they r.

Do the gays who r young now go out and do the 20 questions, some of which differ, like do u do PreP? PreP is a drug only for male gays which reduces risk of getting HIV. Some folks r even blasé about HIV today, as there r many drugs that r multiples of ingredients, in one pill, a cocktail of sorts, to keep the virus at bay…so they feel like what’s the big deal if I get HIV now?? But Corona is that new boogie man, and it feels like your worst nightmare, not being able to breathe, because of a million chemical reactions in that wizened body, waiting to die. Watch out, all u active sex types…the Corona is The Loch Ness Monster, coming in the night, to eat u, in a way that u really don’t want to be eaten.

As 4 me, I’ll survive, likely, just because I know my infection control regimen, plus this isolation is actually reducing my risk, so if I wait it out, maybe till vaccine development, well, maybe then life will be worth living again. I am uncertain, but I assign life goals slowly, deliberately, w great precision, as to what matters. And I hold out hope, that intangible, that propels us. In the meantime, buy those sex toy stocks.

Evergreen in the Rain

I just LOVE rainy afternoons, all lazy, thick bands of clouds forming grey and dark, foreboding, w the eeriness of the tree branches blowing, and a thickness of the bands of sweat forming on passerby cheeks and necks…on a humid, sultry NYC afternoon, just u, me, and our thoughts 4 company, amidst a controlled chaos of sorts. And u hear the thunder echo in the distance and perchance actually see the lightning spikes, but NYC is messed up, as too many buildings in close proximity often obscures the sky.

To have an open vista view of NYC is to live like a Queen or King, as such is not being built, except for the monstrously wealthy who can afford sky and water views of skyscraper residences on tony areas of midtown and elsewhere. Such views merit prices in the millions for a mere 1 bedroom, concierge building…the ordinary people have obscured views of bricks and mortar, concrete and if u r fortunate, some tree plantings.

So in order to feel less imprisoned, and actually get a view, u head out, to vacation escapes, where u stay in hi rise hotels, w views overlooking said water and skyline, perhaps a direct view of incredible sunset…happiness is your playground. A pool to walk to, only for hotel guests; a spa, which because of COVID restrictions still requires masks be worn, but ok, we r in it to be respectful and concerned 4 our fellow man. And a massage, wow! How is that possible when NYC doesn’t even allow indoor dining yet?! Hands on tired and aching muscles, joints, backs and even your scalp, it feels so heavenly to be touched again! Even 4 hire as such.

All u need is to look 4 it online, and seek, ye shall find…Gaming and exquisite dining, serious precautions to look for re keeping the virus at bay, but because gamblers tend to lose, the casinos can afford the extra precautions to keep their properties safe. And we can catch up on our summer reading, juicy gossip re the POTUS in the past, percolating his upbringing, which as u can imagine, was horribly abusive. How else to explain this travesty of a man occupying the Oval Office today? Hey, give him a break: no one w a sociopathic father, absentee or unconcerned mother, aunts and cousins all pitted against a poor little dumpling kid, who did not measure up, sufficiently…what can happen? Either death by alcoholism, too soon, or drugs, or mental aberrations of finding a way to withstand the abuse and neglect all around u, for years on end…U do not emerge unscathed, no one does. I can tell u that.

Murderers r usually made, not born. The trouble is u have the power of life and death over others as Commander in Chief. The nuclear codes r things u hold, and the “football” is that locked briefcase, held by Secret Service near the POTUS, at all times, just in case. So much power. And a personality disorder holding that power. I am eating up that verboten book by Dr Mary Trump. When I can read it, being too busy most of the time, blogging like this, or running my household. Or escaping to my desired sunset. Or cooking, drawing, talking w friends, a million other priorities like voting for America’s Got Talent, now in the live finals rounds, w no audience but 4 ZOOM. And the TV audience. All separated, like always. I lament that my liked news anchor Lester Holt closes with nightly, “Take care of yourself and each other.” And knowing that each other implies family in your home, of which I have none, except the spirits of those now departed. But I cheer up and remember that my family is chosen, my friends, whom I love dearly, and they love me, which is quite rare nowadays. We just live distances from each other. And being alone does not mean that I take all comers on, nope. I relish my solitude and my freedom a lot. I will not bend to the vicissitudes of the current situation. I have my standards, and tho I might opine that leaving my home country might be a better life, I know that that won’t be my fate. My friends r my family, and it is 4 them that I live. I need to remain within a certain geographical proximity to them. And if alone, so be it. Better it is so than to be w an egghead!

I will not marry up or even consider people who r too dissimilar from myself. It is ironic that while u can want a certain type of person, anyone who knocks on your door will not do. I have actually been sought after repeatedly, but always the wrong types. I need someone who is at least my equal intellectually, w certain educational levels of attainment. At least working, w a middle income, and not looking for a sugar mama, to provide everything. Someone who feels good about themselves, who is within a certain age range, who does not live too far…and who will accept me for who I am, imperfect. And if it be my fate to remain unwed, so be it too. I accept God’s will, knowing that all will not be granted anyone. All in all, I got more than most. And I intend to spread it far and wide to my loves, in whatever form that takes.

I will close w a thought of a beautiful song by Barbra Streisand: Evergreen. So incredible!